So going back to what I was saying before. I think scorekeeping for me personally is just out of so long of doing things but not getting anything in return. If so, is sometime after the fact want to sit and think about it that nobody's doing anything for me so then I start to squirky because anything less feels like I'm just being exploited for my goodness..


And sometimes I feel that way with women too. Like a woman will use me for every bit of goodness that I have in me and will play into my attraction for her because she knows that that will keep me motivated to continue to do things for her. Like manipulating me at these crucial moments just to keep me going...

I think you should be able to admit that you have feelings from a friend get rejected and still move on as friends